Make me a servant, humble and meek

Make me a servant, humble and meek was from a song that my brother, Jonathan sang in a Christmas program and I vividly remember him standing by a "singing Christmas tree" of all entire choir, as a sweet little boy singing those words and my mother - crying her eyes out sitting beside me... 

Proverbs 11: 2 "Pride leads to disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom."

I blog about what I struggle with. So, so many times I am reminded when I am facing disgrace in my own life, why I am. Because I am a prideful person. Shamefully, I admit this to you. I can confess my sins to another, and hope that you all will hold me accountable about this. I looked up some definitions in the verse because to me - if I am not living in the truth of this verse, I must not completely understand it.

Pride: a becoming or dignified sense of what is due to oneself or one's position or character; self-respect; self-esteem.; a high or inordinate opinion of one's own dignity, importance, merit, or superiority, whether as cherished in the mind or as displayed in bearing, conduct, etc.

The Lord quickly reminded me in His grace that "dignified sense of what is due to oneself" Um... that I am only Worthy because of His Blood. That without Him, nothing I do matters. So, what can I justify that I have done that is good, that is worth anything? Right? All of my honors, awards, and whatever else this world tells me matters is nothing without Him. Carrie Cook started teaching me about a year ago it seems about wood, hay and stubble ( 1 Corinthians 3:11-13 (New Living Translation)  For no one can lay any foundation other than the one we already have—Jesus Christ. Anyone who builds on that foundation may use a variety of materials—gold, silver, jewels, wood, hay, or straw. But on the judgment day, fire will reveal what kind of work each builder has done. The fire will show if a person’s work has any value.) How true? All of that will burn and not matter. 

Disgrace: the loss of respect, honor, or esteem; ignominy; shame; cause to lose favor or standing; a source of shame; humiliation

When I read that I immediately beg the Lord, please keep me from disgrace! Please keep me from shame. Or like Psalm 119: 39 " Take away the disgrace I dread, for your laws are good"  

Humility  (humble) - low in rank, importance, status, quality; low in height, level ; having a feeling of insignificance

In view of who Christ is, of the God who created ALL, who was and who is and who is to come - Yes, I feel insignificant! I feel humbled. Then, why would I not be humble all the time? May God remind me constantly that I am His and He loves me, that I am on His mind, yet I am not Him... I am His beloved, but HE alone is Holy. Galatians 6:14 "May I never boast except in the cross of our Lord Jesus Christ, through which the world has been crucified to me, and I to the world."

I was thinking over that definition some... low in height or level - people I consider humble are those who are on their face praying to God, constantly seeking Him. Interesting that a physical position can represent humbleness...  And low in rank, a servant maybe? Someone who would serve others... not be served! I pray that God will continue to change me till only He shines through me, and none of anything the world cares for!